Welcome to Infinite Soul Project - Part 1

Welcome to the infinite soul project a podcast exploring the soul's infinite journey of expansion, healing, and awakening. I am Tara Joy, and I am here with Laura Mabe. Welcome.

Hello. I'm so, so excited for us. This is, like, kinda surreal. Very excited.

Yeah. And and we were just talking before we started recording about how we were like, maybe in spring, we'll launch it. And then as soon as October rolled around, it was like, no. We have to start it now.

Yeah. This is happening right now. Yeah. Let's do this. Yeah.

It's And it came together pretty quick, actually, once we once we shifted focus to doing it in the fall, which is awesome and very Tara Joy and Laura style of doing things. Very much. We're like,

nope. Nope. Maybe.

Go. Go. Go now.

So we've been thinking for a while that we're going to do a podcast together. And during the brainstorming idea manifesting stage, we landed on infinite soul project. Yeah. And so I'm curious to hear your take on what that means and what you feel we're going to dig into.

Yeah. I I'm very curious to hear from you too because we did talk about it a lot, and we threw out a lot of suggestions that we both loved. But I feel like this one landed for me because the journey is never done. Like, I think in this experience, this human experience is very much like we have a lot to learn. And even when you get to where you're going, then you gotta go a little further.

And it's a really great way to describe the personal journey that I'm on right now because it's very fluid, and there's been a lot of growth in the last few years. So the the word infinite specifically is really special, I think, in that sense where it's descriptive of where I am personally and where I'm going, and there's no end goal. It's just about heightening the experience and, you know, learning and growing. And I feel I think even though there's so much more to say, I I feel like it's kinda self explanatory in a sense. And I think you might agree because when we were discussing the names and and kind of the concept behind the podcast, even though we kind of went through a few different scenarios, the concept was very much the same no matter what we call it.

Yes. So, yeah, I feel like the infinite soul project just feels really good because it just, like, landed in a place of, you know, the the heartfelt journey that I'm on right now, and I think you would agree. And, obviously, there's so much more that we're gonna get into that kinda talks more about the soul piece. But where are you at with it? Because, again, we kind of agreed on a lot of things even though we changed our minds so many times or not changed our minds, but there was a lot of, like, brainstorming happening.

Yes. So tell me tell me what it means to you.

Yeah. So a 100% resonate with what you just shared. Mhmm. And for myself, it goes back to that how people, especially in the spiritual community, describe themselves as a soul having a human experience or a soul in a body Yeah. Versus a body that has a soul.

Mhmm. Because and and full disclosure, I didn't always believe in everything that I believe in now. I didn't believe in, you know, reincarnation or that souls come back or past lives. I was like, I don't know if that's really a thing. But then I had personal experiences where, oh, it's real.

Yeah. And our soul is infinite. Mhmm. And I find so much of our reality has a finite box around it where under like, having that belief that your soul is infinite. If you have that belief, then imagine, like, what's possible.

Totally. Absolutely.

When you're like, oh, like, my soul is connected to everything. Therefore, I can influence and interact with everything. And then that's that's where I am in my personal journey of, like, fully, totally experiencing that where before, I was like, I hope it's true. I want it to be true. You know, I want the magic to be real.

And now it's like, holy crap. It's all real. Yeah. It's it's you know? And I'm experiencing it, like, not every every day, but most days, there's these magical things that happen.

And so having to be, like you say, infinite was like, there's so much energy in that word. Like, infinite. Like, there's no box around you. You are infinite. You're full of possibility.

And then bringing it back to the soul, which is our essence of our energy. And then the project part, I feel, was was part of this. Like, it's the work. It's the growth, and each individual decides what that means for them.

Right. Yeah. Absolutely. I agree with all of that as well. And it's gonna be interesting as we start to chat with our guests to hear, you know, what Infinite Soul Project means them as well because, even though we are very much aligned just from what we 've just said, we do have, like, a little bit of a different interpretation of what that means.

And, yeah, it's it's super interesting and really exciting, and I do feel it's it's kinda strange actually just to back up for our listeners who don't know us very well. People who do know us will be, like, not surprised by this at all. But when Tara Joy and I started chatting and getting to know each other a little bit, I don't know if we actually just for, like, one day, let's do this podcast thing. It was just like this even though that did come up, it was just kinda like this understanding

Mhmm.

Kind of because at one point, I threw a note there that it it was kinda background noise for me, and you kinda said the same. And then all of a sudden, it was like, we're gonna do a podcast together. There was no, like, chatting about it, which I think is, like, so fitting for the theme of this podcast. Yeah. Because it just kinda, like, happens so organically and naturally, and I think, that in itself is really cool that, yeah, we were brought together for something so much bigger because at the time, we were actually just talking about a collaboration event.

We just met, and we were talking about this cool event that we wanted to put on together, and that's kind of where this whole thing stemmed. So, life is a journey. It's so funny. And and I love where it's already brought us together and where we are going together because we've had many a chats and lots of exciting stuff on the go. So Yeah.

Yeah. And, again, anybody who knows us personally

Yeah. They'll be like,

oh, this is a no brainer. This is yeah. Exactly. It's like, yeah, that was that was obvious to us.

Yeah. So

yeah. And

it's definitely like that meme that I I recently shared with you, but I just, like, came across where there's one young girl, like, out on her street by the sidewalk. Yes. And this other young girl rides by on her bike, and the girl by the sidewalk is like, I like you. Can we be friends? And the girl on the bike is like, yes.

And then she's the other girl is like, okay. Bye, mom.

And then she walks away. With my friend. That's exactly how this is.

Yeah. I'm like, that's exactly how we how we met. Met, and it's like, now we're BFFs and, like, chat with each other almost every day. Yeah. And and I feel through our conversations, I part of it was like, oh, other people need to hear these things.

Yes. Because especially when you're going through an awakening or a journey of getting to know yourself, however you wanna describe it, it feels isolating at times, and you feel like I'm the only one that thinks this way. Yes. But then you go on a little Google somewhere, and you realize, oh, YouTube has millions of videos about this exact topic. Right?

Yeah. But there is that moment of I'm totally different than anybody else I know. I wanna talk about things no one else is interested in. And so this was also the opportunity to be like, if you wanna talk about all those things, like, come talk to us.

Yeah. Absolutely. And how many times have you heard from other people that there was a time where they felt crazy or still do? Like, they're like, holy crap. This thing happened to me.

I feel like I'm going nuts. Like, I hear that so often. And I think that that's interesting because it's like that point, that peak before you meet your people. Exactly. Peak of, like, something's happening.

That's really cool. I can't explain it. Nobody else around me is experiencing this. And then all of a sudden, you start to dig in, and that's where you find your people. And we're all like, hey.

We've all experienced that feeling crazy, and, no, you're not crazy. And there's a whole community of people that are Yeah. Waiting to welcome you. So that which is cool. I mean, it's exciting.

But I think all of, you know, anybody who's had any type of awakening or enlightenment or experience of whatever spirituality or whatever it might be, we've all felt that that very, like, small feeling, like, not sure where to go. So, yeah, using this as a platform to, you know, not only educate, but just, like, speak freely and, you know, chat about some cool concepts and, you know, have some really cool guests on that are gonna, you know, help with that, I think, is is a really awesome thing to be a part of. I'm just so excited to see where this goes. I know.

Yeah. And and another thing is some people who are listening might have heard of Bashar. The the channeler's name is Darryl Anka. If you're a member of Gaia TV or bouncing around on the Internet searching Starseed information or ET communications, you'll come across Bashar. Mhmm.

He's been channeling since the eighties. Yes. And what I love about today is that there are so many people speaking openly about these things now, and we don't feel like we have to hide anymore.

Yes.

And, like, I know you and I have done a lot of personal work from our conversations about Yep. Being ready to do this. Right? Being ready to talk about all this stuff and put it on YouTube and on past podcasting that goes literally worldwide. Like, I'm so excited to see where people listen to.

Yeah.

That's me too.

But it's just that this is such an exciting time of allowing all these things to be known and talk about them openly. Like, kinda normalize it that Yes. You know, it's just, oh, that's just another thing. Yeah. Instead of, like, oh, ETs.

I

know. And that's kind of the beautiful thing of having having an open heart. It's just like, you know, not everything is gonna resonate, but, like, give me all the information. I wanna know all of it. You know what I mean?

Like, it's it's kinda cool. And I think it's funny because I have moments all the time where I'm like, does it seem like everybody is kinda coming to where I am because I'm just more open now and seeing it, or is there an actual movement of people kinda searching for a different, you know, way of thinking? And, what's what's kinda unique in our area, Nova Scotia, Canada, is that right now our health care system is kinda failing us. And a lot of people you know, not to say that it's completely failed and that nobody is getting care, but in years past, it was a lot stronger. And now it's becoming, like, a very quickly declining, health care system.

And I do feel in that sense, people are opening up to alternative ways of healing. And, you know, like, we're kinda thinking a little more holistically, and, you know, that's just a small piece of what we're talking about. But I do feel like in this area, I am noticing that more people are opening up to different sources of information, which is Yeah. Is really cool. You know, it's it's unfortunate that it came to this with our health care system, but, also, it's, you know, kind of a great time to just keep talking about all the things to to kinda support that holistic way of living.

So and to me, I find the holistic health goes hand in hand with, you know, the spirituality and just, like, opening up to different belief systems, in that sense. So I I do think that this is a really great time just to get to know each other and, open up our, you know, podcast to some unique guests and just, yeah, see where this goes. It's it's really it's exciting, and it's it's great. And I feel, you know, universally universally, we're leveling up to the fifth dimension. And I think that that is part of why I was unsure about the timeline of not only this podcast, but just, like, in my own journey and my own business.

It's like everything is just, like, status quo until it's not. And then all of a sudden, it's like you get this little, like, twinge of excitement and, like, that go mode, and you just, like, hang on and go for it.

Yeah. And here we are. Here we are.

We're just, like, trusting that that experience.

What I've learned is you're never gonna feel ready. Yes. You have to follow that excitement. You have to follow that thread of, like, oh, there's something juicy here. Yeah.

And I need to follow it. Yeah. Do I know what I'm doing in podcasting? No. But there's something here Yeah.

That is kind of, like, bigger than just you and I. Mhmm. And when I get those hits and I'm curious after I say this, I'll ask you the same question. Like, how does it feel when you have that? Mhmm.

You know, this is, like, something that you need to do. It scares the crap out of you. You're not ready. Yeah. And you're terrified.

Mhmm.

But you also get a glimpse of, like, if it works out, here's the energy of what it feels like if it works out. Yes. And when I feel that and, like, sometimes I ask my guides. I'm like, okay. Show me what it feels like if this works out.

And they're like, here's what it's gonna be. And I'm like, oh, how can I not do that? Yeah. And when I get that initial, like, oh, it's scary, and I don't know. And then there's all these emotions and then, like, ego and, like, logic tries to kick in.

Before that, I just get this, like, overwhelming calm feeling in my body of, like, this is right. This is soul level. And then often, I'll get, like, full body goosebumps, like, from my toes to the top of my head. And then I might even get a zing up the spine of, like, zing, zing, zing. Like, this is this is big.

You need to be attention.

Yeah. Absolutely.

Yeah. So that's when I got those hits, that's how I feel. And then it's up to me to put on my baby girl panties. And even though it's terrifying and even though it's not gonna be easy to go do it. Mhmm.

So Yeah. When you get those hits, what what does it feel like? Or do you see things? Do you feel things? Do you hear things?

Yeah. It's funny. I definitely physically feel things as well. I can even when you were describing that I was feeling, I get, energetic charge in my right arm. That's always, like, a sign to me of something, like, bigger and, like, you know, a trust in the process type thing.

Yeah. But what's interesting is that a few years ago when I was kind of really getting into, like, my business side of things, I was very clearly told by my guides to just let go of the resistance and, like, lean into the process. And even though, you know, being a human and a woman, there's so many times where you, like, worry and overthink things. But every time I stop and I think to myself, like, just let go and see what happens, like, it's amazing Yeah. How fast incredible things happen.

And I that has led my journey over the last couple years. It's just, like, not trying to dictate and control every single outcome and, like, over plan. It's like I have I have, you know, kind of, like how do I wanna put it? Like

Like, I'm seeing this skeleton, like, the structure.

Yeah. Yeah. It's like the the overall kind of whatever. And then once you just get going and let it take form, it's not until you realize that it's taking form before your very eyes without that judgment and worry and anxiety that that has kinda led me to so very similar to what you're saying, but maybe less of a physical sense and more of, like,

a you know, like An inner knowing that Yeah. It's gonna Yeah. Yeah. And something that I felt and experienced with another collaboration that we did together, which was a wellness show here in Nova Scotia Mhmm. Was that and spirit my guides have this cheeky way of kinda being like, Like, you think you have so much control over things.

Like Yeah. Get over yourself. Right? And this was one of those experiences where I let go of having to control everything, of having to feel responsibility that I and I alone had to create this thing. And instead, I invited that universal energy, invited the community, invited the vendors, the people who are interested, the guests who were coming.

Yeah. Just working with that energy instead of, like, Tara Joy has to make all these people come. Yes. Yeah. Absolutely.

I could feel the difference, and I could feel how it took on a life of its own. Mhmm. And it almost, like, advertised and marketed itself. Yeah. You know?

Yes. We did do traditional marketing and advertising with a strategy, but there was this other level of, you know, people could feel it. Yeah. Yeah. And I feel Yeah.

With any company, people feel that. Right? Whether it's spiritual or not. Yeah. It's that authentic energy of, is it in alignment with me or not?

Agreed. Absolutely. And and that's the thing is, like, even though, you know, giving into that resistance and just letting it happen, I mean, you're still that is kind of what intuition is too. You're still doing what feels good. And, you know, if it doesn't feel good, you're not doing it.

So this is about, like, putting your trust in the universe to guide you, and letting it just happen organically. Mhmm. And like you said, even though, you know, we still followed a strategy and all the things, it was still kind of, like didn't feel like work.

No.

It just felt so aligned that it was, like, exciting, and it was fun. And, yeah, like, the feedback and the the people that were involved really picked up on that and I think kind of, like, fed off of that. Which is cool because my whole life, I've been a warrior and a over planner and a type a. And, like, in in a lot of my other areas of life, I am still like that and still, like, learning.

Recovering perfectionist. Yeah. Huge perfectionist. Huge.

Absolutely. Yeah. So it's definitely been a ride. I think it's it's cool. There's there's so much I'm really excited just because, like, having this platform again, like, to just talk those things out is honestly gonna support us in our journeys as well as our audience and our listeners, which

is really cool. And that that quote that keeps coming to me, you know, the rising tide raises all ships. Yeah. We're all helping each other. Yeah.

I also stopped looking at fellow vendors at fairs as competition. Yes. And I see them as community now. Like, they're part of my soul family. So when I Mhmm.

See these individuals, it's more a, like, family reunion than, like Yeah. Oh, I hope I, you know, make all my money for the table. And it's such a beautiful space to be in where all of my life prior was, like, the comparing, the perfectionism, the worry, the stress. Am I doing enough? Am I enough?

Am I too much? Where now it's just, you know, what what feels right? What should I follow? What's my next step? Right.

And and, you know, also focusing on that this moment right now is the only one where I can make any difference

Mhmm.

In the trajectory. Yeah. Also, like, let's go so much. And you're like, oh my god. I don't have to worry about tomorrow until tomorrow?

Like Yeah. What a relief. Like, oh my god. Much worry on Twitter.

Mask. I know. I know. It's so true. And, like, tell me if you agree with this.

So, like, up to we'll say a few years ago when I really got into, you know, allowing the universe to take over and just leaning into the process, there was always this, like, what will people think? And I think that is a part of that perfection piece is, like, you know, people on my social media that maybe I went to school with or, like, you know, worked with or who might not know this side of me, I've always been a little anxious about what will people think. And then throughout this, I'll say, enlightenment that this journey that I've been on, it was a tough lesson and not even a lesson. It was just like, in order for this to work, you need to learn how to let go of that and just be who you are authentically and Yeah. Not worry about what and the funny thing about that is is most of the people that you feel maybe a little worried about not understanding you, a lot of those people are actually very much in the same place and feeling that and going back what we were saying earlier about, you know, that, like, I feel crazy, and I'm alone, and nobody else feels this.

Like, so many of us are experiencing that and understand that Yeah. That there is something really powerful about letting that go and just being who you are and and just going for it and being you know? And I think, like, that type a personality, that perfection, thinking about it now in this moment, it's like, who sets that standard for that perfection? Like Yeah. What am I trying to perfect and for who?

Exactly. Oh my gosh. Yes. Yeah. So totally resonate with all that as well.

Mhmm. Yeah. And I'll add that I through and I have to own this. That's the other thing. You have to own, like Mhmm.

A lot of your stuff because, yes, it might have been a parent or a guardian or a teacher who first introduced that to you, but then I made a decision to keep that energy. Right? Yeah. So I needed people's approval and validation to be worthy or to be successful. And so I look back at my, you know, my university career, my diploma in graphic design, my, you know, nine to five jobs, and I was constantly the people pleaser, the overachiever.

Do you need help with that? Do you want me to do extra? You know? And that was actually my own low self esteem, my own low self worth. And so when I decided to let go of what other people thought of me and their opinions Yeah.

There was this part of me that's like, I don't even know what how I feel about myself because I put so much power and value into other people. Mhmm. And I noticed, like, when when someone would make a comment on social media, I would, like, overanalyze it and think of and, like, what are they saying? What's their intention? And it's like, it's a stranger that you've never met.

Why does that matter? Yes. Right? Yeah. And there there was this realization that, like, oh, you need to really own this.

Mhmm. And and then I started the work of getting my self confidence up, being worthy of you know? You're freaking amazing. Like, why are you letting all these people determine your worth when you get to do that? Yeah.

And once that script was flipped, that's when all the magical things started happening and synchronicity started happening. And that's for me when the tribe and the people who are aligned started coming to me. Like, I would just have a thought about something, and then an email would drop in my inbox. Yeah. And I'm like, this isn't real.

This like, that's just like a fantasy lane. That does Yeah. But it happens. Totally.

Totally. And, like, what's interesting is that when you're saying that, this this just came to me. It's like, all those years that I spent worrying about what people would think of me or, you know, worrying about not being good enough, How many people in your journey are like, you're amazing. Like, you are so good at what you do and, like you know what I mean? You get all this positive reinforcement, and you still are like, I don't believe in it.

Yeah.

It was like, I got lucky. That's a

fluke. Exactly.

How do you not see that I'm terrible person and, like, make all of these mistakes all

the time? I know. Yeah.

And then I'm like, oh, that's, like, that's me. Yeah. Yes. Being mean to me. They're trying to help.

Yeah. Exactly. It's that's really interesting, actually, because, yeah, it I feel like so many people are gonna relate to that too. Because how many times have, like I mean, it's no secret. My mom and I are very close.

And every time my mom is, like, so impressed by my journey and what I'm doing and whatever, and she gives me this positive reinforcement, I'm like, you're my mom. You're supposed to say that. And she's like Yeah. I am your mom, but I'm not supposed to say that or even friends. Like, you're doing so good.

And you're like, yeah. But, like, you have to say that because, like, I'm paying you. You know what I mean? Like, it's just hilarious because, realistically, nobody has to say anything or give you any of that positive reinforcement. But and as you're talking too, like, that is how I feel about you.

It's like imagining you in a place of, like, self doubt or, like, anxiety or worry. It's just like, what?

I know. I, like, I hit it so well that most people, when I talk about it, they're like, what? Like, you're the most confident, badass person I know, and you're, like, out there doing all the things. I'm like, yeah. And I'm scared poopless the whole time and thinking I'm doing the wrong thing.

Yes. Yeah. So and and that's important for people to know is that even the most successful people are still feeling the impostor syndrome, the fear, the perfectionism. You know? Yeah.

And I feel that's just part of the human journey. Yeah. And, also, every time you level up, it comes back because you're expanding and growing. And, like, you know, when we get a 100 podcast listeners, we're gonna be like, oh, this is scary now because people are listening. Yeah.

And then when we get to, like, a thousand, we're like, oh, this is terrifying. Now there's you know? And Yeah. That's just how you evolve and grow. And, also oh my god.

They're hilarious. They just sent me this message. Also, it means you're not a psychopath because you care and have emotion. Thank you, guys. Right?

So if you stop caring Yes. Then it's like you're you're not in alignment. You're not on your, like, journey anymore of Yes. Of what you're here to do. You're just going through the motions, which I feel when I was in my early twenties, that's very much what I was doing.

It was like, I I have student loans. I need a job. This isn't the perfect job, but I need the money, and it's paid well. And then once I got there, it was like, I don't really like it here, but I just have a job. I get paid well.

Yes. Yeah.

Leaving is really scary. Yeah. So Yeah. Yeah. So, yeah, the fear is always gonna be there.

Yeah. But you get to

Sorry. Go ahead.

Oh, I was just gonna say, but you choose whether to let it stop you or not.

Absolutely. And that is actually, like, the perfect descriptor of the infinite soul project.

Here we are.

You know what I mean? Like, it's

Somehow we got here.

Yeah. Somehow we got here, and here we are. I don't know. Did you

I can't remember if you've

read the book, The Let Them Theory by Mel Robbins.

I haven't. Okay. But I know enough that, you know, it's basically you do you. Concept. Yeah.

And to summarize, like and and this is something also that's in the spiritual community. There's this message of how people react to some of the things you express, some of how you show up. It's more about them and their experience than anything that you're doing.

Yeah. And that that's very similar to the point I was gonna make about that is that the number one takeaway for me from the let them theory was not giving my power away in the sense that I'm not going to allow other people's opinions to dictate what I do. Yeah. And that's that's an on me thing because they have zero control. Yeah.

And And sometimes they're strangers. Yeah. And this is it. Like, you cannot, you can't there's zero power that you have there of what people think or what people do or how they react. It's all about what you do and what you do next and how you're going to use that to level up or

Mhmm.

Take the next step or whatever. And if there's anything that I got from that book was, like, stop wasting your energy on things that don't feel good.

Yeah.

And I very much do that. I mean, it's a work in progress because we all are still, you know, highs and lows. And because it's fluid, it's not a one and done formula. We always have to show up for ourselves and and remind ourselves what's important. But just having that knowledge and what to do with it is has really honestly changed me because I think that is where my my drive comes from for my business and for my family and all the things is like, I'm just gonna do the best that I can.

I'm gonna do what aligns and what feels good, and all the rest doesn't matter because I have zero control. And, yeah, I think it's it's super important just to to remember that and to continue to show up for ourselves in that way.

Yeah. Yeah. And it feels really challenging to let go of that because another another layer of that goes back to our survival Yes. Of being in tribes. So if you weren't accepted by the tribe, you were ostracized, and then you were alone.

And if you were alone, then you didn't survive. Mhmm. But we're in 2025.

It's okay. You're safe here.

We're in 2025. We're safe. You know? There's there's grocery stores everywhere. You know?

Yes.

Yeah. So Totally.

Yeah. So we can find shelter, food, and whatnot if, you know, if we're lucky. I know not everybody has that privilege. Mhmm. But we're like, we don't need to make everybody happy anymore.

Right. Yeah. There's, like, a certain giddiness when I say that out loud. Because the reality is we're not for everyone. Right.

And not everybody is and and to go back to that statement of, like, worrying about what someone might think of you know? And I still come up with that energy because part of my gift is, you know, channeling light language, which, you know, I can right now, I can see the the face my brother would make if I did it in front of him. Right. Right?

Right.

And it's that face. It's like a two second facial expression that is like that's freaking weird, and I'm gonna run away.

Two seconds that you carry with you. Yeah. It's totally powerful.

But, also, like, it might not be for him. Right. Yeah. But there are people who are willing and ready to receive it. And so by me not sharing it is actually a disservice and an abandonment

myself. Yes. Yeah. I, yeah, I totally resonate with that. And throughout my journey, my guides have told me many of times, like, because impostor syndrome has come up for me a lot where I'm like, there are so many Reiki masters, and there are so many, whatever, meditation coaches and all the things, and my guides are constantly like, you don't see it yet.

But there is something there that, like, is super powerful, and the right people do get the right thing from that. And I agree completely with what you're saying. And having the ability even just to recognize that is is pretty special, you know, to know that maybe your brother doesn't align with what you're doing, but it is meant for somebody. And I can tell you from all the people that I've spoken with who have received your beautiful gifts, there is a time and a place and an audience for it because, yeah, it's super it's very powerful. So keep on keeping on.

I feel that this is a conversation that we even had about this podcast. At one point, it was like, not everybody's even gonna enjoy this type of content because that's not where you are right now, and that's okay. Those aren't the people that we're speaking to. We're speaking to the people that totally resonate, and there's a reason why they're our listeners. And Mhmm.

You know, they will get what they they need out of this content. And recently, I was a guest on a podcast, and that came up where it was like, we weren't even actually talking in full sentences because we were so we were just on the same wavelength that, like, we laughed about it thinking there are people that are gonna hear this that aren't even gonna have a clue what's happening because we were saying so much without actually saying anything. Right. And you would have to, like, kinda go back and do your research to really understand what. But, anyway, I feel like that's kind of maybe what's gonna happen here from time to time is that the right people will understand it, and the right people are gonna find this podcast and get something from our content, which is pretty cool.

So Yes. Yeah. And what I also love about podcasts is they are eternal. And my guides are showing me how the weaving of timelines will be perfect for whoever finds us whenever they find us. Right.

And and our audience is very much going to to grow along with us. Mhmm. And and there's no right or wrong in this. Like, everybody's on their own journey. Everybody's going at their own pace.

And so if you find us six months from now and you start at episode one, you're exactly on the right path, exactly on the right timeline. Yes. And then I see I also see some people, like, jumping episodes because they're like, that resonates. That resonates. This and this doesn't, so we're going here.

And, like, that's kinda how going in the flow of the energy works. Like, it's not a linear a b c d path. Right. Yeah. And to trust that.

Yes.

You know, I also see some people going backwards. Like, they find us at episode 20, and then they're listening to nineteen, eighteen, 17.

Yeah. Yeah. I'm excited. I'm excited. I every once in a while, I get this feeling in my belly, and it's like butterflies.

I feel like a kid at Christmas again where it's, yeah, it's a very dominant feeling that I get in my belly. And I was feeling this back when we did our first vendor fair. We started this thing where we would interview our vendors, live and post on social media. And even then, I was like, I can't wait to do this podcast because I would get this feeling in my body, in my stomach that was just, like, so giddy with excitement and joy. And then we did our second show, same thing.

We kinda leveled up a little bit with our recording and our interviewing, and I'm like, this feels so good. I cannot wait. And now I just have this moment of, like, we're here recording our first episode, and I like, that feeling that I have right now is really cool. Yay. It's really cool.

I'm just so happy to to do this with you, and I I can't wait to see where this goes.

I know. I'm so grateful for you. Yay. Yes. Coming on this journey with me.

Yay. Come on, take it. Yeah.

Woo hoo. Let's go.

That's the other funny thing about the people that know us. I feel like when we're together, it's like this unexplainable, like, exchange between us that, like, I'm really excited to actually get to know you more on a personal level because we have not even gotten there yet because at the time, we have a conversation. We are so charged with excitement and energy and, like, all the collabs we've done together and everything. Just like, that's where our focus goes. And like you mentioned earlier, we talk pretty much daily, I would say, like, chatting through social media.

But, realistically, we haven't had a chance to, like, get each other get to know each other on a more personal level. It's been, little bits here and there, but that's kinda cool because here we are. And Yeah. We have nothing but time to get to know each other now. Yes.

Exactly. Yes. Yay. Yay. Yeah.

And that will be because we're I feel like I almost 45 already, which is crazy. But, yeah, that'll be in part two of Yes. Our episode is we're going to get into some backstory. You know, how did we get here? A little bit of our personal getting vulnerable.

You know? The scary bits, the, like, scared poop list parts, the, like, am I going crazy? Do I need to check myself in somewhere? Moments for part two. So Yeah.

Listen to part two next, and thank you so much for making it this far, listening. Thank

you. So grateful.

And so grateful for you, Laura. Yay. This journey.